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Derek was absolutely sure he was in
love with Amanda. She had lived next
door to him since they were seven years old and they had gone to school
together ever since. He even remembered
that she moved into their cul-de-sac neighborhood in Sacramento, California on
an unusually rainy Tuesday afternoon.
Derek remembered that he had just
gotten off the school bus where it always dropped him off at the end of the
block when he spotted the three moving trucks and an off-white Volvo station
wagon parked in the house adjacent to his.
As he walked down the sidewalk towards his house with the other three
boys who lived on his block, Derek watched a brunette girl with a Lakers jersey
sink a free throw in a basketball hoop at the end of the driveway.
“Whoa,” the boys all said in unison.
She had turned around, her long, wavy,
chestnut locks damp from the rain. Her
light blue eyes were a stark contrast, but fit well with her pale skin. She gave them all a slight wave, then ran to
retrieve the ball.
A tall, slender man emerged from the
front door, “Amanda!” He called, “get in here right now!”
Amanda’s petite legs bounded up the front
door steps and into the house.
“Your hair’s funny,” Amanda said as she
played with his tousled, blonde locks.
She had a small cut on her cheek.
“Why’s that?” Derek asked her, looking up
from his comic book that he had cleverly hidden behind their Math textbook.
“It’s so long. You look like a girl.”
Amanda stuck her tongue out and giggled.
“Yeah, well, why do you wear that Lakers
jersey all the time? You look like a guy,” Derek shot her a glare. Even as a kid, he felt like he wanted to
spend every moment with her and he was also afraid of her.
Amanda frowned and grabbed the reading
glasses from Derek’s nose, revealing his chocolate brown eyes. They grew wide with anger as he struggled
miserably to retrieve his glasses.
“Give them back!”
“You have to get them from me if you want
them,” Amanda teased, reaching her hand high up in the air so that the glasses
were out of his reach. She was slightly
taller than him, especially when she was on her tippy-toes.
“Amanda! Derek! Sit down, you’re being
disruptive,” Ms. Ravin shouted from the front of the class. “And Amanda, please
give Derek back his glasses.”
“Let’s play HORSE after school. If you win, you get to take something from
me. And if I win, I get take something
from you.” Amanda handed him back his glasses and sat down.
“Fine, as long as it’s not my glasses.”
“And… that’s E. You lose!” Amanda shouted. She laughed wildly and ran around Derek in
circles, dribbling the ball.
“Fine, you win fair and square,”
Derek adjusted the glasses on his nose as if to say, “I need these.” Amanda
stopped running and walked in front of him, balancing the ball in her palm.
“I want your most favorite comic
book,” she said, her eyes twinkling with enchantment. Derek liked the way she looked when she was
excited.
“Can it be my second most favorite?”
Derek hated to think he’d have to part ways with Detective Comics #27, which was the original comic book that
introduced Batman as a superhero in 1939.
His dad had given it to him when he was five and his dad had given it to
him when he was five. Now, he couldn’t
keep up the family tradition. And his
dad was somewhere overseas in the military.
Derek could only imagine how disappointed he’d be if he gave it away.
“No, I won fair and square and I
want your most favorite comic book,” Amanda said, stomping her foot.
He wanted to tell her that he couldn’t
part ways with it because it was the only thing that he had right now that
connected him to his dad and it was his most prized possession. But she had won fair and square. He knew if it were any other girl, he wouldn’t
give it up.
“Okay,” he said reluctantly. “Come to my
room.”
Between the stacks of Pokémon cards and a
small comic book collection lay Derek’s most favorite comic book: Detective Comics #27. It had its own prominent space on his desk
that was used for everything except doing homework.
“Here it is,” Derek said, grabbing it and
holding it up for Amanda to see.
“Detective Comics #27?” She took the
comic book from him and began to flip through the pages.
“Yeah, DC comics for short. This is the first issue Batman was ever in. It’s
really old,” Derek said. “Take good care
of it.”
For the next two weeks, Amanda had worn a
Batman shirt to school everyday.
When they were both thirteen, they began
to drift apart. She drifted from him and
he let it happen. They still smiled at
each other and said “hi” in passing when they would see each other on the bus
to and from school, but nothing more.
Now at seventeen, Amanda had established
her group of girlfriends, Casey and Ally, and Derek had his two best friends:
Cole and Sander, who shared his enthusiasm for comic books and Xbox games. They were great, but they weren’t Amanda.
They liked to remind him almost daily
that she was now “way out of his league.”
On a regular sunny Sacramento Monday,
Derek idled by his locker and listened in while Code and Sander argued over the
new Call of Duty game.
“The graphics are insane but the gameplay
is nothing compared to Modern Warfare 3,” Cole said.
“Bullshit, man,” Sander said, shaking his
head. “Advanced Warfare’s gameplay is a thousand times better than MW3.”
Derek placed a Chemistry textbook into
his backpack and slung it over his shoulder.
He was well adjusted to these types of arguments; sometimes he weighed
his opinion in, but today he wasn’t feeling up to debating.
“Did you guys study for the Chem test?”
Cole and Sadler both turned towards
Derek, “Yeah, did you?”
Derek closed his locker and the three of
them walked down the hall towards their Chem class. “Yeah, but Mr. Wilde is
pretty harsh. I got a B on the last test
even though I studied for hours.”
“Don’t sweat it, dude. At least we’re more prepared than Colin and
his crew.”
Colin and his crew was the term that most
of the student body used to describe varsity football captain and quarterback,
Colin Schwartz, and his two best friends, Jack and Mike, not coincidentally
also on the football team as a running back and lineman, respectively. Colin hosted parties weekly in his mansion
when his dad was away on business trips; his mom had died when he was little,
but Derek didn’t know all the details.
Derek nodded in agreement, his gaze
drifting towards Amanda at her locker with Colin by her side. He had one arm around her shoulder and the
other against the closed locker adjacent to Amanda’s. Amanda had been with Colin for almost a year
now, Derek discerned. He had no idea why
she subjected herself to such a cliché type of guy when Amanda had been anything
but a cliché.
That night, Derek’s mother called from
the kitchen, “Honey, I’m just going out to the grocery store. Do you need anything?” He knew that if she
shouted an answer back, she wouldn’t hear him and it would be a long back and
forth until he actually went downstairs and answered her question when he was
in the same room as her. So, he headed
down to the kitchen and looked into the fridge before answering.
“Can’t go wrong with waffles.”
His mother laughed and said she’d be back
in an hour or less. She walked out to
her car and he went back up to his room, collapsing on his bed and eagerly
returning to the latest volume of his favorite comic book Batman and Robin. He soaked
up everything this issue was offering him before he heard a tap at his
window. He placed the comic book upside
down (he wouldn’t dare crinkle the pages by dog-earing the corners), and turned
around.
Amanda Wilson sat at his windowsill clad
in a long-sleeved Batman t-shirt, black jeans and a pair of Chuck Taylors. “You
gonna let me in?” She called, her laugh ringing pleasantly in his ears.
Derek opened his window and lifted the
screen so Amanda could crawl in. “To
what do I owe this pleasure?” This was the most he had said to her in four
years.
“You’ve changed a lot,” Amanda said,
ignoring his question as she gazed around the room covered with various cartoon
characters and his ever-expanding comic book collection. His Pokémon cards were tucked in a Pokémon
binder in his bookcase, surrounded by dozens of science fiction and fantasy
novels.
“Really?” Derek asked, his eyebrows
crinkling in confusion.
“All of my observations are
sarcasm-based.” Amanda wandered into Derek’s closet and snatched a gray beanie
from one of the shelves. She placed it
over her head and pulled it down so it covered the tips of her ears.
“Hey, you can’t just come in through my
window and steal my hats,” Derek said, his shoulders slumping as he spoke. He didn’t want to scare her away, but he also
didn’t want to challenge whatever it was that she was up to.
“I need your help,” she said, turning
around and flashing her piercing blue eyes at him. They were twinkling with the same type of
enchantment he remembered her having as a kid.
“You’re going to have to elaborate,”
Derek said. “Nice shirt by the way.”
“I had to get a new one when I outgrew
the one I got after you gave me the comic book,” Amanda said with a smile. She
bit her lip and clapped her hands together. “I need to borrow some money.”
“What?” Derek had been hoping for
something a little more personal, something that only he could help her with.
“Can’t you borrow money from Casey or Ally?” He paused, then mumbled, “or
Colin.”
“NO!” she spat, taking a book that was
lying on Derek’s top shelf and throwing it with force across the room. It hit
the wall with a loud thud! and fell
to the ground, a black mark visible on the wall in its wake.
“Amanda!” Derek rushed over to the book
and rubbed the sleeve of his gray t-shirt furiously against the wall. “What
gives? My mom is gonna flip when she sees this.” Derek entertained the thought
that Amanda might be on drugs. She was
too well spoken to be drunk. Maybe she
was just crazy.
“Yeah, yeah. I’ll help you repaint it later,” she
dismissed him. “I need your help and your money because Casey and Ally are
‘too busy’ with homework to help me tonight and don’t want to go out because
it’s a ‘school night’ and they might ‘get in trouble.’”
Derek was amused at the way she put air
quotes over certain phrases. He smiled,
“But I’m a nerd, and two of those things fall under my criteria as well.” He
was curious to hear what Amanda thought of him after all these years, what
she’d noticed about the type of person he had become. The last thing he wanted to do was get out of
helping her.
“Oh, please. You get straight As and I
know you probably finished all your homework for the week,” Amanda said,
rolling her eyes. She then grasped his
hand and locked eyes with him. “It’s you, Derek,” She said, dramatically, as if
pretending to have found her long lost love, “I need you.”
Derek couldn’t help but laugh. So that’s what she thought of him. Well, he had to admit, she wasn’t too far
off. He swung their arms back and forth,
“Okay, Amanda. I’m in. But can you please explain what it is that
we’re doing exactly?”
Amanda released his hand and Derek
immediately missed the warmth. She gave
him a fist bump, “Hell yeah!” She cried.
The she started pacing the room, appearing deep in thought. “First, you need to change into something
much more camouflage-y. Then, we need to
drive to Albertson’s and buy two-dozen eggs.”
“Drive? You mean like in my mom’s car?”
Derek frowned. Surely Amanda knew he
didn’t have his own car to drive.
“No, silly. We’re gonna take mine,” Amanda said as if it
was the most obvious thing in the world.
“Okay, so do you have like black pants and a black shirt?”
“Yeah, I do, but— ”
“Great, change and meet me in my driveway
in ten minutes. Don’t forget to bring
money for the eggs!” Amanda said as she slipped through the window and jumped
onto the roof. Derek heard her feet hit
in the ground. This was definitely the
weirdest thing he had ever done, but he wasn’t going to let Amanda slip away
from him again.
“Is this suitable?” Derek was wearing a
plain black t-shirt with black corduroys and one of Cole’s old pairs of black
Vans skateboard shoes that he had grown tired of when he’d given up his
skateboarding hobby. He had left a note
in the kitchen for his mom, saying that he was sleeping over at Cole’s tonight
and “not to call because they were hard at work on a chemistry project.” He knew she would trust him.
“Perfect,” Amanda said, turning the key
in the ignition of her Jeep. When she turned the headlights on, Derek noticed
she was wearing black face paint.
“You’re really into this.”
“Hell yeah I am. Do you know what we’re going to do tonight,
Derek?”
“No, I was actually hoping you’d tell
me,” he said, buckling his seatbelt as she began to drive.
“We’re going to make history,” she said,
glancing over at him with the biggest grin he’d seen on her. He swore that his matched hers for different
reasons. He had never felt closer to her
in that moment.
“Albertson’s looks sorta sketchy at
night.”
“Everything is different at night,
especially people.” Amanda was a stride ahead of Derek as she walked through
the front doors of the Albertson’s grocery store.
Derek had no idea what Amanda meant by
that. From what he’d come to understand,
people were either real or fake and it had nothing to do with the time of day;
it had everything to do with their level of closeness to you.
“Cage-free, extra-large, egg whites, or
brown eggs? So many options to choose from…” Derek said, scanning the multitude
of eggs in front of him.
“Just pick the cheapest dozen you can
get, cause we need two of them,” Amanda said. Derek glanced away from her and settled on
two-dozen eggs for three dollars and twelve cents each, tucking them under his
arm.
“All good to go,” Derek said, and Amanda
looked up at him with a smile. “Are you
ever gonna tell me what these are for?”
“Great, step two is almost complete. Patience is a virtue, my friend.”
“This place looks familiar,” Derek
commented, looking up at the grandiose mansion with dozens of lights
surrounding the long driveway and the front door. There were more windows than he could care to
count.
They had parked across the street from
the mansion. Amanda had wedged her Jeep
between a mini-van and a Toyota Corolla, making a comment about how it would
look “less suspicious” that way.
“That’s because you’ve partied here
before,” Amanda said. She opened the car
door and knelt down on the pavement, using her phone screen as a
flashlight. Derek followed suit,
assuming they had to be “in camouflage” now.
“Yeah, I don’t think I’ve been here
before,” Derek said as he crawled next to Amanda. “I don’t really party.” He recalled what she had said before: “All my
observations are sarcasm-based.” Judging from her lack of response, he assumed
she was waiting for him to remember that.
A few seconds later, Amanda chimed in,
“The best way to get in is climbing up the tree in the back and then through
the second story window. You have the
eggs, right?”
“Yeah… I have them right here, but wait,
we’re breaking in?”
“No, we’re not breaking anything, so
we’re not ‘breaking in.’ We’re just paying someone a visit…”
The more Amanda spoke, the more she
sounded like a deranged serial killer to Derek.
He swallowed a lump in his throat and realized the bag of eggs was
moving back and forth because his hands were shaking.
“Amanda, whose house is this? Are we
going to egg this person’s house or something? Isn’t that a little childish?”
Derek had so many questions and he was growing frustrated with Amanda’s lack of
answers.
She ignored him again and took off in a
sprint through the long driveway. Derek thought
about dropping the bag of eggs and making a run for it; he cursed his inability
to drive. That way, he wouldn’t be
identified as her accomplice to whatever crazy scheme she was about to commit.
He couldn’t leave her behind. So, he ran after her. All those track & field practices were
paying off for him. He caught up to
Amanda in a matter of seconds and followed her as they wove through the large
lawn. When they reached the back of the
house, they stopped by a swing set drenched in cobwebs and leaves. Amanda decided this would be a good place to
whisper.
“Okay, you see that window right there?”
She pointed to a second story window almost directly above where they were
standing. “We’re going to climb that tree right there,” she said, pointing now
to the tree that stood to the left of the swing set with dozens of thick
branches popping out of it. “And then we’re gonna walk quietly on the roof and
slide in through the window. Easy peazy.”
“In what world is that easy peazy? What
are you, a monkey?” Derek shook his head in disbelief.
“Precisely,” she said, snatching the bag
of eggs from Derek’s hand. “I’ll take these so you can stop whining.”
“Can you please tell me who lives here?”
Amanda laughed, then swiftly turned,
running at full speed towards the tree. She had tucked the bag of eggs on her
shoulder and somehow managed to jump onto the tree, gripping it with dexterity
as she shimmied up its stem. Derek
stared at her, slack-jawed, and wondered how the hell he was going to do this.
She looked like freakin’ Catwoman.
Amanda crawled on her knees along a thick
branch that stretched towards the house.
She would have to make a significant leap to reach the roof, which she
prepared herself for by placing the bag of eggs between her teeth and balancing
on her feet. She steadied herself, then
in one swift motion, jumped onto the roof.
She landed with her hands outstretched, probably to support herself, and
was surprisingly relatively quiet.
“Come on!” Amanda called out, ushering
him forward with her hands.
Derek gulped, the tree looming in front
of him like a giant rock climbing wall without any nubs to hold onto. He could feel his heart racing and his hands
trembling; he had no idea how he was going to be able to grip onto this tree
let alone climb it. He hesitated, then
broke into a sprint. He thrust his arms
outward and wrapped them around the tree as he jumped off the ground. The impact of the bark against his t-shirt
felt like dozens of little needles piercing through the skin in his hands and
chest.
Once Derek got over the initial shock, he
glided his hands and knees up the tree stem, holding on for dear life. He looked up to Amanda for reassurance, but
she was already busying herself getting the window open, the bag of eggs
resting at her feet. He looked back up
at the tree that seemed to have grown longer and he took a deep breath, pushing
off with his feet and reaching his hands further up the bark. He managed to move his body inch by inch
until he reached the branch. It was an
awkward transition to get on his knees, but he felt more relaxed and stable as
he crawled along the branch.
“Window’s open, hurry,” Amanda said,
ducking her head under the window frame and squeezing her body through the tiny
space.
Derek rose to his feet, wobbling slightly
and momentarily contemplating if he would die if he fell from a height this
steep. He looked down and immediately
regretted his decision. Why the hell was
he climbing a tree in the middle of the night in some random person’s backyard?
When he looked back over the window,
Amanda was already inside. The last
thing he wanted to do was be caught outside alone, so he leapt onto the roof,
his right foot scraping the edge and he gripped onto the shingles for dear
life. His landing was considerably louder
than Amanda. She poked her head out the
window.
“I don’t think they heard you in
China. Now come on, before they wake
up!” Her head disappeared back inside, and Derek, quietly as he could, slid his
body in through the open window.
“Leave it open or closed?” he asked.
“Just leave it,” Amanda answered. He could barely make her out in the little
light from outside. She was knelt on the
ground, both cartons of eggs open on top of a football shaped rug.
Derek glanced around the room. A large bed was directly in front of
him. To the left was a nightstand with a
large TV sitting on top of it, and to the right of the nightstand was a
closet. It looked to Derek like a standard
bedroom, but he still hadn’t connected the dots as to whose bedroom it was. He stared at the bed, his vision adjusting to
the darkness, and he could finally make out two figures spooning one
another. One was definitely a girl, and
the other a boy. A blanket covered both
of them and from what Derek could make out, it was the only thing covering
their nakedness.
“That’s Colin and a girl who isn’t me,”
Amanda whispered in his ear. Derek
hadn’t realized she’d moved so close to him.
She placed an egg in the palm of his hand. “I’ll throw the first one, and then we’ll
just pelt them all at him.”
“I’m so confused,” Derek said, both to
Amanda and himself. “If you know he’s cheating on you, why are you with him?”
“I just found out,” she said
nonchalantly, picking up as many eggs as she could hold without dropping
them. “On my count… 3…2…1!”
Without hesitation, Amanda launched two
eggs at the couple. The first hit Colin
in the head and a resounding, “OW!” was his response. The second hit him somewhere on the torso,
and by now, he was sitting up straight.
“ATTACK!” Amanda screamed, and Derek
threw the only egg he had in his hand, reaching eagerly down to the cartons for
more.
“What the fuck is going on?” Colin
shouted, fumbling for the light switch on his nightstand. Egg after egg hit him, yolk spilling over
onto the sheets. The girl he was with
shrieked as she rolled out of the bed and onto the floor, pulling the blanket
with her. This left Colin exposed as he
stood up, his hand finding the light switch.
“Surprise, fucker,” Amanda wiggled her
eyebrows at Colin, who thrust his hands in front of his exposed penis. Then, she pelted him with the rest of the
eggs in the first carton. Derek joined
in, throwing six eggs one after one at him, before stopping when he caught
sight of the girl he was with.
“Um, Amanda,” he tapped her on the shoulder
and pointed to the girl hugging the blanket tight around her body.
“Casey, are you fucking kidding me?”
Amanda had saved just one egg in the second carton, and she picked it up,
tossing it up and down.
“Amanda, I’m so sorry. I—I thought—”
“Fuck you.” Amanda threw the egg straight
at her face, and Casey screamed as she turned away from it. The yolk splattered all over Casey’s golden
hair and Derek stifled a laugh.
“You’re fucking dead, Amanda. I’m gonna ruin you tomorrow,” Colin spat, his
finger pointed at Amanda, while his other hand remained over his penis. “You
just made the biggest mistake of your life.”
Amanda shook her head, laughing
loudly. She motioned towards the window
and Derek crawled through it. “Do your worst.” She pulled out her iPhone and
snapped several pics of the scene, flipped them both off, then slipped back
through the window.
Derek was already on the ground when
Amanda appeared outside. Amanda made it
down even faster than he did, and they both ran in strides towards her Jeep. Amanda was giggling the whole way, stopping
once she got to the car to catch her breath; she was doubled over in a laughing
fit.
“That was fucking awesome,” she said
finally, taking deep breaths. “And I have the photographic evidence to prove
it.” She whipped out her iPhone and scrolled through the pictures. Derek burst out laughing; the situation was
even funnier now that he knew it would be forever documented.
“You gotta send me those,” he said as
they both climbed into the car.
Amanda turned the ignition and drove
off. A comfortable silence filled the
car. Derek felt euphoric, like he had
just experienced something so unfathomable in the best possible way. He wondered if Amanda cared about Colin’s
threat, if she was concerned. He
wondered just how Colin could “ruin” her.
He wondered if she had something to be ashamed of. Some part of him continued to hope that she
would tell him what it was if she did.
“Where are we going?” he finally asked as
they began to drive down an unfamiliar road.
“You’ll see.”
Derek looked at the time: it was already
2 AM. He had to be awake for school in
four hours but he wasn’t even close to being tired. In that moment, he had never felt more alive.
“This is my favorite place to just be,”
Amanda said, brushing a strand of hair out of her face as she looked across the
shimmering pond. Derek knew where they
were: McKinley Park; he’d been here a handful of times with his mom taking
advantage of the public tennis courts, but they’d never spent time by the pond,
and they’d never been here after dark.
It was closed off at night, but Amanda knew a section of the fence that
was always kept open. Now that they had done one illegal activity already,
Derek was surprisingly calm about breaking into a park after dark.
They were seated on a bench tucked away
from public view in a grassy area, a beautiful cherry blossom tree to their
right, providing a pleasant smell when combined with the pond water.
“So you come here a lot?” What a stupid question, Derek thought.
“Yeah,” she said. “I’ve been coming here
since I was little, actually. When I
first moved into the neighborhood.”
“Really? How come you never mentioned
this place before?”
“I’ve never told anyone, actually. You’re the first person I’ve ever brought
here.”
Derek’s heart thrummed. He wondered why him? Why now?
“I actually found this place the first
time I ran away,” Amanda continued, staring blankly ahead. Derek noticed her lack of eye contact.
“Ran away?”
“Yeah, I ran away from my dad the first
time he ever hit me.” Amanda folded her arms across her lap, toying with her
hands.
Derek bit his lip, turning his head so he
was looking into Amanda’s blue eyes. She
seemed sullen all of a sudden and the mood was a stark contrast to what it had
been thirty minutes ago at Colin’s mansion.
“I’m sorry, I had no idea,” Derek said.
“It’s okay,” she answered quickly. “My
mom’s death has been hard on him and he’s always blamed me for it.”
“What? Why would he blame you for it?”
“She died giving birth to me.”
Derek blinked a few times, letting this
new information sink in. He had no idea
that her dad was abusive, let alone that her mother had died giving birth to
her. He just knew that she had died sometime
before they’d moved into the neighborhood.
“He always said I looked just like
her. It probably just drove him crazy.”
“Does he still hurt you?”
Amanda nodded, raising the right sleeve
of her Batman shirt to reveal a bruise about the size of her iPhone. Derek wanted to reach for her hand, to
comfort her, but he wasn’t sure how she’d react.
“Your dad always seemed like a pretty
good guy, to be honest. I feel stupid
for not realizing what he was really like.”
He thought for a moment, realizing that perhaps he’d projected what he
wanted in a father onto her dad without ever really getting to know him beyond
superficial basketball games in the driveway.
Amanda laughed, shaking her head and
finally turning towards Derek. She
looked at him earnestly, “Every human being is a contradiction. Some just hide it better than others.”
“Do you really believe that?” Maybe Amanda was a contradiction to
everything that Derek had ever assumed that she was.
“Of course I do.”
“Okay, then tell me, why of all people
did you date Colin Schwartz? That guy has got to be the biggest cliché. There’s no way he’s a contradiction.”
“He’s going to Harvard in the fall. He got accepted early decision.”
Derek leaned forward and laughed, but
Amanda didn’t join in. He stopped
laughing and cleared his throat. “You’re
serious?”
“He’s actually really smart. He just pretends to be a dumb jock to ‘fit
in’ with the rest of the football team.” She smirked at Derek’s surprised
reaction. Obviously, she had told this
story before and had received a similar reaction.
“Well I’ll be dammed.”
“Yeah, he was a pretty decent guy… until
now that is.”
“Seriously, what is he going to do to you
tomorrow?”
Amanda rolled her eyes, “Whatever he
does, I’ll live through it. High school
really isn’t that big of a deal.”
Derek nodded, surprised at how serene she
seemed all of a sudden. “So you’re not mad that your boyfriend cheated on your
with one of your best friends?”
“Casey was never that much of my friend
anyway. Neither is Ally. They’re just sort of there. When I started dating Colin, they just gravitated
towards me and they stuck.”
“So why didn’t you just tell them ‘hey, I
don’t actually want to spend any time with you?’”
“They were tolerable,” she said,
shrugging.
Derek couldn’t understand this. Why would anyone want to spend time with
people they didn’t connect with? Pretend to be friends with people? It made no
sense to him. She could’ve just been his
friend all this time…
“So what about you? What are your college
plans?”
“You seriously want to talk about college
plans at 3 in the morning?” Amanda shook her head. “Fine then. Let’s take a walk around the pond.”
Derek walked by her side, his hands in
his pockets. “Waiting to hear back from
colleges is super nerve-wracking. I just
figured it’d be nice to talk about it to relieve some of the stress.”
“Yeah, well, I’m hoping to get into UCLA
to study psychology. But UCLA is hard to
get into and I’m not the perfect student.”
Amanda was looking at her feet as she walked. “I don’t like that my
future is in the hands of people that I’ll probably never meet. I don’t want to fail because other people
have terrible taste.”
Derek smiled. This he could understand. “You’re smart, Amanda. You seem to know a lot about people, well,
apart from the fact that Casey was sleeping with your boyfriend.”
“Actually,”
Amanda countered, “I knew he was sleeping with somebody besides me because he
was always making up excuses for why he couldn’t come over or why I couldn’t
come over, bullshit excuses. Then he
would show up at my house smelling like Chanel perfume and that was the last
straw.”
“Does it suck knowing it was Casey and
not some other random girl from school?”
“Honestly, no. Just gives me a reason to finally cut her
loose.” Amanda kicked a pebble by her feet and continued walking.
“So, why UCLA?”
“It’s far away from here, but not out of
the state. It’s got a great Psych
program and anything’s possible in LA, right?”
“Certainly is.” He paused. “You know, when my
dad left for the military when I was a kid, I knew I never wanted to be too far
away from my mom. I couldn’t bear to see
her cry the way she did when my dad would leave for years at a time, so I kind
of made a pact with myself to stay near her as long as I possibly could.”
Amanda’s eyes met his and she offered a
smile, “That’s really sweet.”
“I don’t know where I’d be without her,
honestly.”
They had circled the pond twice now, and
as Amanda checked her iPhone, Derek’s eyes caught sight of the time: 4 am. In two hours, he’d be awake and getting ready
for school. Exhaustion was beginning to
overwhelm him.
“We should head back,” Derek said. Amanda glanced up at him, quirking an eyebrow
and shrugging.
“Fine by me.” She stuffed her phone back
in her jeans pocket and the two headed towards her Jeep.
Amanda pulled into their cul-de-sac,
turning her headlights off several houses before reaching hers and
Derek’s. She drove at a snail’s pace,
trying to make as little noise as possible.
Finally, she came to a stop in her driveway and Derek fumbled for the
door handle.
“Wait,” Amanda said, causing Derek to
turn away from the door and towards her. After the night they had spent
together, Amanda seemed much more like a stranger to him than the person he had
thought she was after all these years. It scared him. A lot had changed since
they were kids.
The certainty of his feelings toward her
had faded into obscurity. He realized
now that they were different people who led completely different lives. Amanda wasn’t someone he could relate to or
wanted to hang out with. All these years
he thought she was his dream girl, but now he understood that they were
completely incompatible.
“I just wanted to say thank you,” Amanda
continued. “You know, I chose you for a reason.”
“Chose me?”
“Yeah, I chose you to help me out
tonight. I knew that you were the only
person in my life who would agree to such a crazy scheme without knowing too
much of the details.”
Derek wondered if she showed up at his
window now after knowing all that he learned about her, would he do it all
again?
“You owe me 7 bucks.”
Amanda chuckled and leaned in to embrace
Derek. He stiffly wrapped his arms
around her, the first real contact that they’d had in years. It was completely unfamiliar.
“See you tomorrow,” she said, letting go
of him.
Derek reached for the door of the Jeep
and opened it. He turned and gave Amanda
one last look before heading towards his house.
The overbearing sound of his buzzer woke
Derek up after about an hour of sleep.
He groaned and reached for the snooze button, anger seeping through him
as he realized he couldn’t reach it and would have to get up to turn it
off. With a stretch of his arms and an
extensive yawn, he pulled the covers off of his body and stood up. He pressed the ‘off’ button on his alarm when
something caught his eye. A rolled up
comic book wrapped neatly in a black bow lay in the middle of the floor.
It was just close enough to his window to
have been tossed through it. Derek
picked it up and removed the bow, unrolling it in the process. It was the original Detective Comics #27, the very same one he had given to Amanda when
he was seven. He realized that this was
her way of wrapping things up with him. It was a mutual understanding that they were both going on with their
lives, without each other.
